Beginning of 2012

I'm 5% short of replenishing full strength to my battery. However I need a stronger force to refill me with love and passion.

You know, it's funny. It's the beginning of another year full of hopes and dreams to chase. But somehow in my soul there is such a clear sense of my fragility. And that's why I chose to run instead here. To pour out my soul before you Oh Lord. To offer a little prayer to you in writing this. You know me. Better than anyone who would ever read this. You love me better than anybody on this planet. And I still feel the sense that I need you more in my life. Maybe that is what you want to teach me right at the start of this new season of life.

Mom blessed me with a particular blessing when we hug at midnight. Lots of noise outside. But they have subsided and have yielded to a extended silence. I'm left with the echo of her voice and owning her wishes as mine. A few hours ago Dad was wondering at the length of time I have spent back in my homeland ever since my return. I wasn´t counting them. Just living them. But if I am to be truly honest, I must acknowledge that I haven't been living them fully. Rather there were no months in these 48-month period where I did not complain about my current station...

...Yet all that needs change and my life a special refocus on things that really matter. But nothing of that would work if the right attitude is absent. Help I need. To always bring to mind how good have you been God with me giving me the past year and the previous ones more than I could ever deserve. And this is all your doing. I hear story after story -and have lived a few of them!- where I realize this great truth: Your love is deeper still. Mend my heart Jesus and give me always of the everlasting waters that I may never thirst again. Oh, yeah. Thank you!